BDD + Eating Disorder + Insecurities.. Help Me Please…?
i have a severe insecurity about my chubby cheeks. it’s to the point that i have a mild case of body dysmorphic disorder… i check the mirror constantly to reassure myself that i’m okay. i know that the only way to lose the chubbiness in my face is by losing weight, the problem is, i’m 5’5" and 113 lbs (female), and this is my ideal weight. Since i’ve been wanting to lose more weight (to lose facial fat), i’ve developed an eating disorder, where i go through cycles of depriving myself to lose weight, then seeing how difficult it is to lose weight, i’d get depressed and go through binging episodes. i’ve lost 10 lbs so far and my goal is to reach 100 lbs, but i fear that i will be anorexically thin by then. also, i am a student so i can’t afford cosmetic surgery to do lipo. i don’t know what to do, i am so helpless. i am soo unbelievably insecure about this.