Have Any of You Guy Lost Your Dad to Suicide Plz Help?
Ok so my mom left my dad on his birthday declaimed of 2009 and I’ve been livin with him nd my mom kinda lived in a car she came and left to see my dad but things started getting bad my dad got sick depressed sick when he told us he was sick he was crying and i was think cancer but then things got better. But november 2010 my dad hung himself when I walked home from school and saw his car nd he was supposed to be at work i open the side door to the house wondering y he was standing at the stairs nd i walk to the front door and see a leash around his neck I realy didnt want to believe it so I told myself he was joking to see how we’d react and then I try to lift him I look at his face and feel his skin and didnt want to call the cops cuz
I was just hopping he’d wake up and i was only 12 me and my dad Wer so close not even a good bye everyday I still cry myself to sleep but I wanted to kill myself the day before but I thought about my dad the pain hed feel and then i find him dead the next day sometimes i want to do it just to see him again and theres alot more it’s just already too much on here. I always have an urge to hug him or at night to hold me when he was lonely nd say he loves me nd we’d fall asleep(like how dads hold their little girls) i miss him so much to think i was probably smiling at school while he was Doing this I’ve been so depressed without him plz help
He probably was in a lot of pain and he wanted to go, did the reports say he was under the influence of drugs or alcohol, maybe he was just confused and i dont blame him because he was probably lonely but loved you very much, he didn’t mean to hurt you emotionally in anyway, just dont blame yourself try to build up a stronger relationship with your mother and any siblings you have, get your mind off it and just remember the good things about him.