I Don't Look the Part Anymore , Can Anyone Understand My Misery?
i get that sad and depressed about this sometimes even though im on a fixed income ( disability ) i think that i should save up for cosmetic surgery – ie – lipo suction in my face to suck the fat out – dermabrasion for my aged skin.
i was once a handsome looking young lad, now , because of life stress ive aged premature in my face , dark lines under my eyes, wrinkles , frown lines in forehead , open pores in skin…..bleached skin around my forehead and temples where i excessively used to dye my hair years ago, i accidently bleached areas of my skin…..i have a natural olive complexion.
minor physical deformities through injuries years ago and recklessness ; a crooked little finger that droops over slightly………..2 missing teeth at the front, bottom row ….im balding , taking a balding treatment medication.
and whats even worse is ive always been a perfectionist vanity person…..and my obsessive worries are making me focus on these things.
im now 32 and are far different from the perfect young lad i was because of ageing, life stress….its horrible to look at old photos and compare the difference.
im an aged man now with physical imperfections . live alone in a 1 bedroom apartment on disability working with my mental health team to improve my life, try and achieve the ambitions i have left – but i cant help but feel depressed about these facts.
Whats amazing is that I am a 21 year old girl and have a lot of insecurities about how I look. For example, one of my teeth is out of line in a cross bite and I am so self conscious about it. My breasts aren’t what they were only a few years ago because I gained and lost weight, and I am not in the physical shape I once was without effort. We all have these problems but I think the most important thing to do is to stop criticizing yourself 100%. Practice loving yourself, don’t saying about yourself, even in your head, if it is not nice. If there are things you would like to work on you can do that but we are all perfect the way we are, and you have to tell yourself that as often as you possibly can, especially whenever you think you are going to criticize yourself.